Failure is not an option

Today’s topic: Failure is not an option.

Wow. So I woke up this morning and some of my first thoughts were getting to the gym today, replenishing used fruits and veggies and what will be my two soups of the week.  This is crazy. When you make up your mind to do something for yourself it is really amazing how your mindset can change.

My gym is open from 7am to 7pm on the weekends and from 5am to 11pm during the week. The temperature is below freezing in New Jersey. But I still made it to the gym.

I honestly I have no idea how. I got dressed around noon in my gym clothes. I went to the grocery store to get some staples for the week. I came back home where it was nice and warm. I ate and thought about taking a nap. What did I do instead, filled a bottle of water and drove to the gym. Now while sitting in my toasty car I seriously thought about not going in.  I sat in the car for a few minutes. Then I put on my hat, my scarf, my gloves and zipped up my coat while complaining the whole way into the gym about stupid winter and the freaking cold. I HATE WINTER!!!!!  I walk in and politely greet the staff member that praised my trip to the gym in this frigid weather.  I smiled, said thank you and grumbled my way back to the locker room. I remove my hat, coat, gloves and scarf and head over to the cardio equipment.  Five minutes later enjoying my Ipod I forget that I hate winter and enjoyed my workout. I even sat in the sauna for a few minutes. Who would’ve thought that would have happened. Certainly not me.

I have altered my goal to include a specific maximum weight. Although that size /weight is daunting it does help frame out the work I have ahead of me.  Work is only work if you hate doing it. I can’t hate the gym or making better choices because that would imply that I hate some portion of myself.

Every so often I bake. Tonight well today my husband asked me to bake him a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting.  I baked it and while it is cooling I am writing this. Yeah…

Now I am not a big sweets person but I have to taste my cake.  So I have already decided that I am going to drink a glass of water, have a piece, and drink another glass of water.  Then I am going to walk away. That is the plan. I’ll let you know how it works out.

I weigh myself tomorrow.  I get measured on Thursday. These numbers are only good to show the progress that I will be making.

I must be believing from the inside out… that failure is not an option.

~Shantelle